Writers Block

So, it’s the Easter Weekend. Seeing as I only have school on Monday/Wednesday/Friday, I have a six day weekend. I also have an English paper due on Wednesday. Which, if you’re counting, means that I have three full days for it. The problem is, I don’t even know where to start.

Okay, so maybe the lack of motivation is the first place to start? I just cannot, for the life of me, make myself even want to try to write it. I realize that it’s worth something like 30-40% of my total mark, and that should be motivation in itself, but nope. I just don’t care. Part of it is probably because how the HELL am I supposed to write a paper where I explain how the formal features of two poems link them together and to my chosen topic. Like seriously? I’m writing on two great (and freaking creepy) poems by Robert Browning- three guesses which- and I just can’t find anything that furthers the idea of mens possession of women in the Victorian Era. I mean, obviously (if you’ve read these poems) the use of dramatic monologue, but that’s about it. Alliteration doesn’t really further anything but the point that a phrase sounds nice.

This is making me feel like I’m back in high school, when I had major essay anxiety, and couldn’t string two sentences together for shit. But seriously, I can’t make this paper happen. And I’m not the only one. My friend is struggling too. I mean seriously, who makes the term paper about the formal features?!

Anyway, I needed this rant. Maybe talking it over with someone will help.

I feel like this lack of motivation has also moved on to other aspects of my life. Like I have a stupid number of facebook messages to answer, but I can’t even make myself do that…I should probably get around to that…(sorry friends).

I suppose I should also admit that I spent much of the weekend so far watching Being Erica. Which if you haven’t watched yet, you totally should. It’s about Erica, who’s life is all wrong, and who is “suffocating under the weight of [the] collective disappointment” of her family and friends. And then she gets the opportunity to live parts of her life over. Essentially, it’s time travel. Also it’s a Canadian show and it’s just wonderful! Not to mention that she eventually goes on to work in publishing, which is kind of my dream job.

I watched this show for the first time years ago, in early high school, and I loved it then. But now watching it as a quasi-grown up at age 20, it means so much more to me. I definitely understand more of Erica’s struggles than I did at 14! Maybe I’ll watch it again in six years and go through this process all over again!

Anyway, I hope y’all are having better weekends than I am!  See you on the other side of this awful paper!

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